I am a better person because of my horse...

In January, I went for a ride on Harley when I was agitated -- wound up emotionally and he showed me in no uncertain terms that I must come to him a whole person, ok in my own skin. Rides before that day and immediately following that day were wonderful when I wasn't so upset about things. *That* day, however, was a rocket ride, ending with me bailing and, amazingly (and fortunately enough) landing on my feet and him coming to a halt...as if we had planned it together.

Today was a day my husband had planned on riding with us. First time in three
months--taking time off from work to do it. SPECIAL morning--great trail I found with someone else. But I was wound up emotionally--probably worse, even, than in January. Processing my emotions this morning was crazy...I was sad, then angry (easier than being sad, I guess) all about LOTS of issues going on with lots of
people I care about--our family's need to make decisions and so on, yet feeling"stuck."

There I was, an emotional basket case...I really wanted to go on this ride with my husband, but KNEW I couldn't ride Harley with the way I was feeling.

Clear as anything knew that, if I was going to have a safe ride, I had to CHOOSE to let all that stuff go...I didn't go into denial. Harley sees through that. I literally let the stuff go and chose to forgive, to release the agitation and rest in the peace that I know comes when I am ok in my skin and all is right with the world. Even writing it, it seems amazing. I don't know if it is a cosmic shift of perspective. The issues were (and are) still there, but somehow they aren't all consuming.

I am so glad I took care of this during our travel to the staging area. Harley knew the difference. I had one of the greatest rides ever on him. It was a new trail which typically is daunting for us...but he was great for it. Hubby had a good time. :-)

It struck me as we got back to the trailer how *good* I felt compared to how I felt as we hauled away from home...

My horse makes me a better person. What if I did this releasing thing, even when I am not riding? Maybe that is the point! :-)